To my darling husband,
I have always felt incredibly lucky to have met you, you really were the yin to my yang, so different yet we complimented each other perfectly.
I came into your life because you needed to find hope and happiness during a time was life was battering you with horrendous rounds of chemotherapy. You came into mine because I needed to believe that I deserved happiness and to experience love, and to bring hope into my dark little world.
It was meant to be, life had meant for our paths to cross, because we needed each other.
You helped me to grow, from that person with no confidence to a young woman who had some self-belief because you believed in me. You believed wholeheartedly, and you held my hand every time I had a wobble, and you kept telling me I could, because you believed in me, and because of that, I pushed myself to be better.
I know I helped you too - I was the support you needed, someone at your side through every terrifying step of your journey, my hand always firmly in yours, taking on the world together, one step at a time. We were quite a force to be reckoned with, weren't we?
The woman I am today is a result of the unconditional love you surrounded me with, and I'll never be able to thank you enough. Although I've lost so much self-belief and confidence since you died, I know I need to find it again, you worked hard on me :) You always said I was your work in progress, that always made me smile.
You changed me for the better, without a doubt. You gave me a voice, you encouraged me to speak up for myself more, and I helped you to think more before you spoke.
I am made of what I learnt from you - you taught me to believe in myself, and to mean it. You always said that I brought calmness and tranquility to your life, it's fair to say you were a hothead, a bit like a match that lit a bright fire on lighting, I was the candle snuff to you :)
You will forever be with me, the handprint on my heart until the moment my heart ceases to beat.
I hope that in my moment, I am returned to you so that our hearts can join once more.
Yours, forever xxx
I've heard it said That people come into our lives for a reason Bringing something we must learn And we are led To those who help us most to grow If we let them And we help them in return Well, I don't know if I believe that's true But I know I'm who I am today Because I knew you
Like a comet pulled from orbit As it passes a sun Like a stream that meets a boulder Halfway through the wood Who can say if I've been changed for the better? But Because I knew you I have been changed for good
It well may be That we will never meet again In this lifetime So let me say before we part So much of me Is made of what I learned from you You'll be with me Like a handprint on my heart And now whatever way our stories end I know you have re-written mine By being my friend
Like a ship blown from its mooring By a wind off the sea Like a seed dropped by a skybird In a distant wood Who can say if I've been changed for the better? But Because I knew you Because I knew you I have been changed for good
And just to clear the air I ask forgiveness For the things I've done you blame me for But then, I guess we know there's blame to share And none of it seems to matter anymore
Like a comet pulled from orbit (like a ship blown from its mooring) As it passes a sun (by a wind off the sea) Like a stream that meets a boulder (like a seed dropped by a bird) Halfway through the wood (in the wood) Who can say if I've been changed for the better? I do believe I have been changed for the better And because I knew you Because I knew you Because I knew you I have been changed For good
"For Good" Wicked